I was diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa when I was 13 years old & was in treatment for most, if not all, of my adolescence. I was hospitalized twice & told by numerous doctors & therapists that I was a "chronic case." Every doctor I saw told me I couldn't dance, play soccer or go to the gym. They used my love of exercise & sports as a punishment & banned me from all sorts of physical activity. I was miserable, angry, sullen & more determined than ever to be the chronic case they said I was. After going back & forth to treatment centers & getting kicked out, my parents were at the end of their patience. They didn't know what to do with me or where to go from there. They were just as scared as I was. It wasn't until they gave me the opportunity to work with a personal trainer & finally get back to exercise that I finally started to fuel my body the way I needed to. I listened to everything he told me & I ate all my meals. I entered my first bodybuilding competition in 2012 & competed in the NPC organization for 3 years. I just recently started doing CrossFit & Olympic lifting (a little over a year) & I absolutely love it. My point...because of being physically fit & creating the self-confidence I desperately needed I am now some much stronger mentally. Of course I have bad days where I struggle to eat or I have low self-confidence BUT I have been in recovery for 5 years now & I am proud of where I came from & where I am now. I still have so many things I wanted to do & accomplish but I am excited for the future. I hope my struggles can help someone see the light in their dark place.